Racing
through the streets of Tribeca just after 8:47am the morning
of September 11th I had no clue of what I was about to experience.
I only knew that I was chasing the source of the loudest most
horrible sound I’ve ever heard in my life. Within the
minutes of my arrival to the corner of Vesey and Church Street,
just below Five World Trade, the tragic events o Sept 11th
had begun to unfold for the whole world to see. I have never
chased tragedy with m cameras. I have only looked for the
truth in the world, to see and understand mankind in its most
fragile and heroic states.
My journey to the base of the World Trade Centre began in
the spring of 1999 when I left New York and my career in advertising
behind to explore the globe as a documentary photographer
for a year. I travelled from Tokyo to Cape Town to Oslo to
Amsterdam to Hong Kong, Xian, Dar es Salaam, Zanzibar, Windhoek,
Bangkok, Beijing, Rome, Saigon, Kyoto, Singapore and many
places in between.
I had just flown home to New York from Tanzania a few days
before the 11th of September. Since late 1999 I had been dating
a Norwegian journalist. Her and I had been commuting between
Europe and the United States for the previous two years to
see each other. Now, I had just spent the month of August
in Tanzania helping her set up a life in Dar es Salaam, as
she had just taken a job as the African correspondent for
a News Agency.
Knowing her expertise in Islam, I was worried about her taking
a position in a city that had seen radical Islamic terrorism
up close only few years earlier, when the American Embassy
was bombed. Our time together went from experiencing clashes
between Christians and Muslims, to police corruption, to watching
the sunrise over the African plains from inside of a Baobab
Treehouse. I wanted to stay longer in Africa, but I had responsibilities
back in New York. I was in the middle of putting an advertising
campaign together for an account at Young & Rubicam, which
was one of my biggest clients.
A pit hung in my stomach the whole flight back to the United
States, as I was leaving so much I loved behind. My only rationale
for leaving my girlfriend behind was that “I still had
something important to do in New York.” She said that
my perspective and photo skills were more needed in Africa.
She urged me to stay and give up advertising to shoot for
AP or Reuters. “Soon” was all I could say.
Back in New York, I was up early each morning battling jetlag.
On the morning of the 11th I was writing an e-mail from my
home office to a friend about my experiences in Tanzania.
I was detailing what it was like being caught in the middle
of a street riot between the police and religious groups and
having to drive my friends through a storm of tear gas and
burning vehicles. As I was typing out this experience I was
knocked to attention by the unbelievable sound of a plane
crashing in my neighbourhood. How I reacted from that moment
on was all pure instinct.
My camera bag from Africa remained unpacked at the front door
of my apartment. I grabbed it and within seconds I was sprinting
through the awakening streets of Tribeca, chasing the source
of the most horrible sound I have ever heard in my life. Humanity
has no vocabulary for what was happening that morning. Only
a handful of extremely determined people knew the script that
day. The rest of the world experienced the shocking events
together moment by moment from each of our own vantage points.
My vantage point happened to be right at the corner of the
World Trade Centre complex.
What seemed like forever happened so fast. Gorill, my girlfriend
whom I had just left behind in Africa, was at a neighbours
home in Dar es Salaam watching the live newsfeed of the second
plane hitting the South Tower. The reality of the event hung
in her stomach. She knew me well enough in her heart to realize
where I would be with my cameras at that moment. When the
Towers collapsed she thought I was dead. For days Gorill,
like most of my loved ones around the world waited for the
phone to ring, an e-mail… anything to know I was safe.
Because of the destruction I lost all communication from my
home and office. Finally on September 13th, news spread that
I had captured the image that made the cover of TIME magazine,
this helped many of the people close to me figure out that
I was safe.
I’m lucky to be alive. I did what I could that day,
and am fortunate that I have pictures to describe what words
cannot. In all honesty, to find the wisdom to explain and
interpret the devastation of this act of violence is beyond
language. On the 15th of September my Mom and Dad finally
reached me on my cell phone from London where they were vacationing.
My Dad told me that he would never have asked me to do what
I did that day, but he was grateful knowing that his son froze
a moment in time for the rest of the world to understand and
put a face on the magnitude and absolute evil behind this
act of terrorism.
This singular experience has changed my life. I will never
forget that day. How blue the sky was. The plume of dark smoke
clawing its way above the skyline. The flocks of birds that
flew around overhead not knowing where to land. And how very,
very quiet the city had become. The way I experience New York
and Africa are now the same, both places exist at the crossroads
of both absolute beauty and crushing tragedy. In Africa I
learned the meaning of compassion, in New York I learned how
it was used.
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